Writing This From an Amsterdam Layover on the Way to Bali
I’m writing this from an airport in Amsterdam.
I’m on a layover, coffee nearby, bags packed, body moving forward. Nothing about the scene looks dramatic. And yet this moment holds more truth about healing your nervous system than any polished transformation story ever could.
Because the days leading up to this trip were not smooth.
The old timeline didn’t dissolve quietly. It came banging on the door like a debt collector. Loud. Persistent. Demanding urgency. Demanding that I slip back into survival mode one last time.
And I didn’t answer the call.
That’s how I knew the healing was real.
When Healing Your Nervous System Is Tested by Chaos
There’s a pattern that appears whenever a woman truly outgrows an old identity.
The chaos gets louder right before it loses access.
Not because you’re doing something wrong.
But because survival senses it’s no longer in charge.
In the past, moments like this would have activated me instantly. Fixing. Explaining. Over-functioning. Proving my worth through competence.
This time, my body responded differently.
My nervous system didn’t spike.
My breath didn’t shorten.
My thoughts didn’t race.
That steadiness told me more than any affirmation ever could.
This is the difference between understanding healing and embodying it, something I explore more deeply in How Self-Worth Looks When It’s Embodied, Not Announced.
Healing Your Nervous System Is Not About Avoiding Stress
There’s a misconception that healing your nervous system means life should suddenly become calm, orderly, and friction-free.
That once you’ve “done the work,” nothing challenging should happen.
That isn’t real healing.
Healing your nervous system doesn’t mean stress disappears.
It means stress no longer runs you.
I still had responsibilities. Things to handle. Fires to put out. Moving parts that required attention. But I met them without urgency and without self-betrayal.
This kind of quiet authority mirrors what I wrote about in The Silent Gold: Why True Worth Doesn’t Need to Prove Itself. Worth no longer needs to be proven through adrenaline.
Calm Is Evidence That Healing Your Nervous System Is Working
Calm is often mistaken for disengagement.
In reality, calm is evidence.
Evidence that your body no longer interprets everything as a threat.
Evidence that self-worth has stabilised at a somatic level.
Evidence that healing your nervous system has moved beyond theory.
Psychology supports this too. According to Psychology Today, nervous system regulation directly impacts emotional resilience and how we respond to stress under pressure.
I didn’t need the journey to be perfect in order to move forward.
I needed my nervous system to stay regulated.
And it did.
I Packed Champagne Anyway
This detail matters.
Champagne is not survival energy.
Champagne says, “I’m not bracing.”
Champagne says, “I expect to arrive.”
Even while the old timeline rattled the door, I packed for the life I’m moving into. I didn’t wait for certainty. I didn’t wait for silence.
Healing your nervous system doesn’t wait for perfect conditions.
It chooses differently in imperfect ones.
This is the same energetic shift I describe in The Field of Self-Worth: How the Universe Reflects the Value You Hold… when your internal state changes, your trajectory follows.
Healing Your Nervous System Changes How You Lead
Something subtle happens when a woman heals her nervous system.
She doesn’t just regulate herself.
She becomes regulating.
As I stayed calm, situations de-escalated more quickly. Conversations softened. Decisions became cleaner. Others slowed down around me.
This isn’t control.
It’s coherence.
Leadership research echoes this. Harvard Business Review has written extensively about emotional regulation as a core leadership skill, noting that calm nervous systems stabilise entire environments.
This is feminine authority in its most embodied form.
Travelling From Nervous System Stability, Not Escape
I’m not travelling to Bali to escape my life.
I’m travelling as a woman who can carry peace with her.
That distinction changes everything.
Travel doesn’t heal us.
Healing your nervous system does.
Bali isn’t rescuing me. It’s reflecting me.
This is the same sovereign movement I wrote about in Tap Into Your Personal Power and Literally Transform Your Life. Power isn’t loud. It’s steady.
When Survival Bangs on the Door and You Don’t Answer
The old timeline didn’t need to be defeated.
It didn’t need to be healed perfectly.
It didn’t need one last conversation.
It simply lost access.
This is what healing your nervous system actually looks like.
You don’t argue with survival.
You don’t negotiate with urgency.
You stop answering the call.
Writing This From the In-Between
There’s something fitting about writing this from an airport.
An in-between place.
Not where I was.
Not yet where I’m going.
This is where nervous system healing becomes visible.
I didn’t wait for everything to feel settled before moving forward.
I moved forward while staying regulated.
That’s the difference.
Final Reflection: Healing Your Nervous System Is the Higher Timeline
True elevation doesn’t come from a flawless journey.
It comes from healing your nervous system deeply enough that you remain steady while life is still moving.
From not answering survival when it calls.
From choosing your higher timeline without needing proof.
From staying calm while things are still imperfect.
That’s not avoidance.
That’s mastery.
And it’s available to any woman willing to trust the steadiness in her body more than the noise of the past.
Further Reading
Internal
- How Self-Worth Looks When It’s Embodied, Not Announced
- The Silent Gold: Why True Worth Doesn’t Need to Prove Itself
- The Field of Self-Worth: How the Universe Reflects the Value You Hold
- Tap Into Your Personal Power and Literally Transform Your Life
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